~Jab tum aur hum~

Jab tum aur hum
Milte the chupke chupke
Phool aur patte tharrate
Gulshan kuch aise khil uthti meri
Yon lage ki pehli bar
Savan mujhe kar chali madhosh
Tum jo ate the kareeb mere
Har ek pal banke sitara
Roshan kar deta mera aasmaan
Kitni der tak fir mujhe
Koi dard o takleef na chuu pati
Tum rehte paas mere, (chale jane ke bad)
Tum rehte paas paas (banke meri saansein)
Vo mohabbat ke pal the kuch ajab
Hum khud se dur, rahe sirf tumhare paas
Vaqt badalta raha, din badalte rahe
Kya pata kab, vo taar toot sa gaya
Jise kabhi tumne joda tha apne dil se
Ab jo hum mil na pate
Intezar ki kadvahat mar dale mujhe
Raah dekhun har lamh… (tum na ate)
Vohi sitare ab chubhe in aankhon ko
Jo kabhi banke mohabbat
Meri duniya ko roshan kar chale the
Mein tab bhi tanha thi
Aj bhi tanha hun magar
Tumko sochkar mein bebas
Aur bhi tanha ho jati hun
Kash vo din fir se laut aate
Jab tum aur hum mila karte the

(kya pata ae mehboob mere – tujhko kis ki nazar lag gayi – jo mein raah taak taak kar bebas hui, tu ek bar kyu na lauta – har mausam mein tujhi se milne ki tamanna rakhe ye dil kambakht – patjhad mein bhi savan ke khwab dekhta raha ye dil badbakht – tu to nahee par teri yaadon ke bal zinda raha ye dil aafat – mein mar chuki hu – dard -e judaai ne loota hai mere chayn o sukoon ko kuch is tarah – tu jo nahee aya aj ki shab mein jalti rahi khud shama ki tarah – shayad tujhe nahee mujhi ko lagi hai baddua badnazar – tu palkon tale jannat ko thaam le khwabon mein, aur mein mar bhi jaun to janaze ko rukhsat na koi kar sake – ae barbad mohabbat mere, tujhe mera salaam)

Uski aadat hai mujhko rulaane ki – jo mein ro padun to khud hi poochey ‘bolo majra kya hai?’

Tere sannaton mein goonjti aahat hun mein
Tere armano ko sehlaati chaahat hun mein
Tujhe jo na mile ek pal chayn vo aafat hun mein
Teri majboori, tera guroor, teri mohabbat hun mein ♥~

Mohabbat mein ae sanam
Mar ke bhi ho na sake judaa
Saansein rukeen… dil toota
Fir bhi zinda rahe sanam
Jise chaaha jag se zyada
Vo na kabhi hoga paraya
Lakh roothe…saath chuutey
Fir bhi usi ke rahenge hum

Mohabbat mein ae sanam
Maut se bhi jeet ayenge hum
Tujhe paya jaise ho ek dua
Ab zindagani tere karam
Hum bhatak ke is jahan se
Tere saharey fir jeene lage
Dil tadpe, aur aankhen huin namm

Mohabbat mein ae sanam
Mere zakhmo ka tu hi bana marham
Tu maseeha…tu hi ibadat
Tu hi saza…tu hi rihaai
Tere bagayr, mein bhi to mein nahee
Shikast bhi tu, fateh bhi tu
Mere dard bhari har muskaan mein tu
Mohabbat mein ae mere sanam
Sab kuch bhula beythenge hum ♥

Adrift

Broken, torn apart,
Crumb from a whole
Leaving the mainland behind
I drift, a tiny island
Barren lifeless empty
There behind me
My chequered past
Milestones (gathering dust)
All that I was, All of me
Lies firmly rooted in the safe familiar
While I (vagabond wastrel) cast off
Never have I been free
Of expectations haunting me
Breaking away physically
Still draws me back in
Like a refrain that dies not
My past life in waves returns
Bringing back memories tumultuous
Why do waters stagnate?
Relations fester, friends abandon?
Sweet love sour to sickening hate?
In one blasted moment, devastation
Ah the complete loss of faith…
How quickly do dreams dissolve
How urgent then the need to move on
The answers, I know not
The questions forever drift by
Does salvation lie in counting Time?
That which has passed – was once raw
That which is raw – shall perchance fade
I move along tiny currents of Hope
And thus each paltry droplet
Made an ocean vast…
Richer in tears, I shall remain

Salgirah mubarak ho

Ek gehri neeli tanhai
Mujhe aaj fir se lapete chali
Jidhar dekhun
Tum aur mein nazar aate vaheen
Shayad ek sal pehle ki tanhai
Bhi kuch aisi thi ~ Suhaani
Jab mujhe maut se churaya tumne
Aaj fir se vo kohar chaya dinbhar
Fir aa gayi aakhri ghadi
Jab dard ki tees na lage
Jab boond boond lahu behta rahe
Aur zindagi jaise ruk gayi ho kaheen
Kis taraf badhun kuch hosla nahee
Apne aap mein sama jaun (to behtar hai)
Ya khud ko tere yaadon mein dafna doon
Ya fir vohi us mod par khud ko chorr aun
Jahan se mera koi ata pata nahee
Mohabbat kya hai, zindagi kya hai
In baton ko kabhi humne jaana nahee
Apne aap ko bhulave mein sajaye rakhna
Iske siva koi kaam nahee
Likhna bhi bekar lage ab to
Mere apne koi alfaaz nahee
Ek gehri neeli tanhai ke siva
Tujhe dene ko koi saugat nahee